What do you do on the dog days of writing? I'm not talking about the actual creative process, although that can sometimes be pretty tough. I'm talking about those days when your writing isn't good enough.
I'm sure every writer has been there. Sometimes, it's self-rejection. Nothing you do seems to work - that word here, that phrase there - it's all awkward or contrived or just plain stupid. You end up hitting the "delete" key for everything. And that's pretty rough.
But what's even worse than beating yourself up? Well, it's worse when everyone else beats you up.
Usually, rejection of a piece of writing isn't the end of the world to me. After all, I've been writing for years now and faced a lot of rejection. However, sometimes a bad day coincides with a bad writing day. A day when you wake up on the wrong side of the bed and then it all goes downhill from there. You open your mailbox, and there is the email you've been waiting for! Finally, that editor or agent or publisher will tell you how much they love your writing and that they can't wait to work with you!
Except it's not an acceptance. It's a rejection. It's confirming everything that voice in the back of your head has been saying for years - you know the one, the one that tells you that you're not good enough, that you'll never be good enough for the big time. That everything up until this point has been a fluke. It's saying that voice was right.
And then your email pings again. And again. Suddenly, the messages are rolling in. And they all say the same thing: Not Good Enough.
On days like this, I wish I had the luxury of crawling back into bed. But three kids makes that sort of impossible. So I guess I'll do what everyone else has to do - suck it up. And try to avoid my initial reaction of, "Why the heck am I still doing this?"
I don't have these days very often, but when I do, they hit hard. I do know this won't last forever, and I'll soon be back to my usual writerly pursuits. But, until then, I will figuratively pull the covers over my head and hope for a better tomorrow.
I love to write drabbles, which are a specialized type of flash fiction that are only 100 words long. They're like potato chips - you can't write just one. But while 100 words might seem easy on the surface, the difficulty lies in trying to have a complete story arc in such a short space. I find that humor usually works best, as it's just enough time for a punchline. However, sometimes a story takes a more serious turn, such as my recently published story "Breakup," which appeared in The Drabble today. It took a number of edits to get it just right. I hope you enjoy reading it.
I always love to challenge myself and write stories outside my comfort zone. What I mean by this is taking something I don't know a lot about and making it the focus of the story - and, hopefully, fooling everyone that I know something about it! My latest story is a great example of this. I wrote it on my husband's suggestion - or, rather, more of a question he asked me. He wondered why there aren't more sports in science fiction stories. Not as in made-up sports of the future where the stakes are life and death, but sports the way we play them now.
I thought it was a great point. The number of people around the world who follow soccer, for example - just because people might live on other planets in the future wouldn't make them abandon their favorite game or, for that matter, their team. So I took my husband's favorite sport, baseball, and added a dash of science fiction.
Granted, I've seen a game or two. But I don't know the sport like a true fan would. So, with my husband's help on the technical details, I put together a story about how fandom might evolve on a space station.
The result was "Lucky Thirteen," which was just published in Neo-opsis Science Fiction Magazine. I had a lot of fun writing this story, and I hope you enjoy reading it, too.
I've been a bit behind on catching up - however strange that sounds. I've had a couple of publications come out in the past couple months. In November, my story "A Helping Hand" was published in Bloodbond. It's based around the idea of vampirism as a disease, not magic or mythology. And, like most diseases, the negatives can far outweigh any benefits.
The second story was published in December as a runner up to a Christmas-themed contest on ironSoap.com. Called "What Johnny Wants for Christmas," it's a twisted little story that centers around a boy disappointed by Santa.
I hope you enjoy reading them!
2016 is over. It's hard to believe - so much has happened this year. We had our kitchen renovation, our baby is now a toddler, and I wrote another book. Oh, and there was a presidential election which divided the country in two, but I digress, LOL. Nah, I won't talk about politics. I feel enough people are already, and I have nothing new to add.
Where does that leave me when wrapping up the old year? Time for the new, of course.
I seldom make New Year's resolutions, as I think setting up the expectation of something that MUST be done is a good way of failing. So I'll treat these as a Kickstarter campaign. I will have my goals and my stretch goals. I will fund it with my creativity and see if I can get this campaign off the ground.
1) Sell my romance book. I've already started my search for an agent, so I figure I'm off to a good start.
2) Finish writing and editing my second romance book. The first part is done already, so I just have to keep plugging away at it.
3) Start submitting short stories/poems again - I took a bit of a hiatus during the second half of 2016, so I'm going to dust off my story and poetry collection and put them out there again.
4) Write more book reviews. I've been a bit sporadic during 2016 - I've written several reviews for the magazine Bewildering Stories, but then neglected the book reviews on my own website. I'd like to juggle both.
If I accomplish all of the above, I will reward myself by... accomplishing more! Hah.
1) Publish/self-publish my fantasy book. I'm undergoing an extensive edit of it and might send it out to some small press publishers. Or I might self-publish. I'll have to do more research on both options.
2) Publish/self-publish my science fiction book. I haven't even started to edit this monster, so I'll need to really buckle down to get it going.
3) Start a food blog with my husband. We've talked about it - he's a chef and I'm a writer, but we tend to have our own personal taste when it comes to food. So it would be fun to do a "he said, she said" opinion piece of local restaurants and highlight our takes on different foods with side-by-side comparison recipes.
4) Write and illustrate a children's book. Not sure I'll even get to this, but it would be fun to do. I have an idea for a series, now I just need to find the time!
And I think that's quite enough to hope to accomplish this year.
Although I'm a week late saying this, may everyone have a peaceful and prosperous New Year!
I attended a free, all-day writer's conference yesterday at the Fairfield Public Library called, "So You Want to Write a Children's Book?" It was a who's who of Connecticut children's authors, illustrators, agents and publishers, from Rosemary Wells to Tony Abott, Christy Ottaviano to Anne Rockwell. There were about 100 attendees, and even more on the waiting list. Going into the conference, I knew next to nothing about publishing a children's book, and I walked away with my head stuffed full of information on the right (and wrong!) ways to go about it. Here's an overview, for those who weren't able to attend.
The keynote speaker was Tony Abbott, who filled in at the last minute for Patricia Giff. He had a droll sense of humor throughout his remarks, and he often had the audience laughing along with him.
The theme of the introduction was "Writing from the Heart." He had some essential things to say about writers in general and children's writers in particular. He said, "Children's writers are ones who love language and story in such a deep way it's almost subconscious. . . . We have to breathe, we have to write - it's beyond our control." He said he's often asked why he writes for kids, as opposed to adults, and his answer was best elucidated by Laurie Halse Anderson: "Children are a much more important audience than adults." Tony found this concept revolutionary, but true - adults are beyond moulding, but children are malleable. "Their brains and hearts are open."
Some tips he had to give for new writers:
- "If you don't read Publisher's Weekly, you should at least subscribe to their free newsletter on kid's publishing."
- "Find a good children's department in a bookstore, because it's marketing-oriented - that's what publishers are doing now."
- "Write the story that needs to be written, and can only be written by you."
There were two panels next at the same time, and I chose to attend the picture book panel, "32 Pages to Paint a Story with Words and Pictures." In the photo from left to right are Anne Rockwell, Lizzie Rockwell, Jennifer Thermes, Deborah Freedman, Susan Hood, Karlin Gray, Tracy Newman and moderator MaryJo Scott.
This panel contained an assortment of illustrators and writers, and some of whom were both. It was interesting to compare side-by-side the roles of writer versus illustrator, and how the two worked together to produce a whole book.
Some advice from the panel:
- Don't give up. "Just keep on knocking on the door, so to speak." (Mary Jo Scott)
- Don't preach to kids. "If I'm excited by that person's story, that's going to come through to kids." (Jennifer Thermes)
- "Picture books have to be almost like a film - they have to be visual. You have to see it pacing out visually. If you can't, the illustrator can't. If the illustrator can't, the child can't." (Anne Rockwell)
- "The editor is neutral - it's not between two egos [author and illustrator]. You need that neutral ref." (Lizzie Rockwell)
- "The biggest surprise [with picture books] is how much work goes into it after the writing is over." (Tracy Newman)
- "What really shocked me was how long everything takes." (Susan Hood)
- "Volunteer to read to kids. . . . You need to get back to the source. . . . You're not writing for yourself, you're writing for those little people, and they're wildly interesting and worthy of your attention." (Lizzie Rockwell)
- "Don't stress about your first draft - give yourself permission for it to be crap. . . . No one else is going to see this." (Karlin Gray)
- "Don't be in a rush. . . . It took me a really long time and I have no regrets about it - I grew as a person." (Deborah Freedman)
- The computer is just another tool. It doesn't matter if the art is done traditionally or on the computer or both. Publishers just want beautiful art. (Jennifer Thermes)
The library provided a delicious lunch, and while the audience and speakers refueled, the librarians took the stage in the panel, "Our Favorites and Why." In the photo from left to right, Stefanie Bergstrom, Helene Murtha, Judy Sparzo and the moderator, Nicole Scherer.
Ms. Sparzo explained the role of the librarian in the children's library. "Our goal is to get your child to come in week after week, to the point any book is a good book." According to Ms. Murtha, there are two types of readers they see - the "voracious reader" and the "I don't care reader." A lot of the time, they have to figure out what the kids want to read and form a real connection. She added, "It's not a one-size-fits all."
Top three books that each librarian recommended:
The Cow Loves Cookies by Karma Wilson
The Terrible Two by Mac Barnett and Jory John
All the Answers by Kate Messner
Use Your Imagination by Nicola O'Byrne
Frindle by Andrew Clements
A Tale Dark and Grimm by Adam Gidwitz
Sick Simon by Dan Krall
The Lion Who Stole My Arm by Nicola Davies
The Boundless by Kenneth Oppel
Christy Ottaviano came in to give us an overview of the publishing process from start to finish in "Behind the Scenes with 'Masterpiece': From Inception to Reception & Everything in Between." She has her own imprint called Christy Ottaviano Books under Henry Holt, which is part of Macmillan. She called herself a "generalist" in terms of publishing, meaning she does everything from nonfiction to fiction, ranging from picture books up to select YA.
One of her most successful publishing stories was Elise Broach's book, Masterpiece. The basic process from start to finish was as follows:
1) Ms. Broach pitched the idea to Ms. Ottaviano. Ms. Ottaviano said that Ms. Broach had her attention at the first line of her pitch: "This middle-grade novel for ages 8-12 is a story about art and friendship, and the sacrifices required by both."
2) Ms. Broach wrote the book and emailed the first draft to Ms. Ottaviano.
3) Ms. Ottaviano wrote back editorial notes about the plot, language, and other overarching things (not a line-by-line edit.)
4) Ms. Broach revised and sent back the manuscript. Ms. Ottaviano had more suggestions, and then Ms. Broach sent back another revision.
5) After this revision, which was where she had a pretty finished draft, Ms. Ottaviano hired the artist for the book, Kelly Murphy. The artist had to have the final draft in order to start working on creating the characters.
6) The artist created character sketches, and the publisher talked to Ms. Murphy about revising them for two reasons: one, to fit in better with the writer's and publisher's idea of what the characters looked like, and two, to make the characters unique from all the other books out there. After a similar round of suggestions and revisions back and forth between the publisher and the artist, the characters were born.
7) Next was copyediting of the manuscript, fact checking, and working with a designer to finalize the interior of the book. There were different covers for the hardcover and for the paperback. The hardcover was more "literary" and formal, whereas the paperback was made to look more accessible to the reader.
8) Next, the publisher sent a "brag letter" - a letter to select reviewers and book sellers. This isn't done for every book, but for 1-2 particular books each year that they think are special.
9) Next was writing a discussion guide for classrooms.
10) Then the book received a number of awards and honors, including Publishers Weekly Best Children's Books of the Year, ALA Notable Children's Books, and the American Library Association Notable Children's Books.
11) Afterwards, the book hit the bestseller list. This isn't always necessarily the same thing as garnering a lot of attention from awards - it doesn't always mean that a well-received book in academic circles will do well publicly, but this one did.
12) The book was translated and sold around the world. Again, not all books translate well or are received well abroad, but the message in Masterpiece proved to be more universal.
13) Then came the audio book, spinoff books and finally, a movie.
Some helpful tips for new writers:
- Go to writer's conferences. It's where the "hungry" editors and publishers are, the ones who are looking for acquisitions. It's where Ms. Ottaviano met Ms. Broach.
- Editors can also get stuck in the editing process, just like writers can get stuck in the writing process. Ms. Ottaviano called herself a "back-burner" type of editor. Sometimes, she has to sit on a project for a while and maybe consult other editors/writers to help get the juices flowing again.
- A writer's first book isn't always the breakout book. Aa lot of writers find success on their second, third, fourth, etc, book. Masterpiece was Ms. Broach's second book, not her first.
There were a couple of mother-daughter combos in the panels, such as Anne Rockwell and Lizzie Rockwell in the picture book panel. The next panel, "45 Years in Children's Books and Another 25 from the Next Generation" was another such duo. Rosemary Wells, beloved author of the Max and Ruby series of picture books, and her daughter, Victoria Wells Arms, who is the owner of Wells Arms Literary Agency.
This was one of my favorite panels - both for the mother-daughter aspect of it, and also to see behind the scenes. I grew up reading the Max books - they were one of my favorites when I was learning how to read, and I read them to my daughters today.
One of the best quotes from the panel came near the beginning from Ms. Wells. She was speaking about how difficult it is to get published nowadays, both because of the economic aspect of it, and because the competition is fierce. She said, "If it's not meant to be, it's not meant to be. . . . If it's meant to be, you will be read, you will be found and you will be published." This struck me as both realistic and hopeful. The reality is that most people who write a book won't get published. But perseverance, in addition to talent, is the key to success.
Some other advice from Ms. Wells:
- Don't overwrite. There's a small space on each page - only 3-5 lines - and your writing needs to be precise. E.B. White said, "Be clear and be short."
- Tell a true story. The details might be changed, but the center of the story can be based on something true that the writer has experienced.
- Do "writing to touch your reader's heart."
- "Write for your reader."
- Don't overreach. "I like a light touch and I think everyone else does too."
Some advice from Ms. Wells Arms:
- Every agent/publisher is looking for something new, something fresh. She can't sell a great idea if it's been done two dozen times.
- "Certain projects pop out of whole cloth. But for the rest of us, it isn't so easy." Writing takes work.
- "There always has to be another good idea to follow up the first one." Agents and publishers are looking to work with an author over the course of their writing life, not just one book. And it's not always the first book that's the breakout.
- Agents have assistants who read their inbox, so they won't often recognize a project if it's been rejected and revised.
- "If something's not working, try something else." If a book's been rejected by everyone, perhaps chalk it up to experience and write a new one instead.
- She said she's "not into queries - don't understand them." A good resume is nice, but it's the writing that's important. Often, agents won't read the query letter first. They'll read the sample writing first and make their decision based solely on that.
- Common mistakes in a query letter:
- Saying that you've read it to your children and all their friends, and they love it. They're a biased audience,
so of course they would love it.
- Getting very wordy. An agent has very little time, so they aren't able to read a long introductory letter.
- She highly recommended attending the SCBWI (Society of Children's Book Writers and Illustrators) conference as a great way of connecting with agents and editors.
The final panel featured Connie Rockman, a freelance consultant specializing in children's literature. The theme of the panel was "Passages of Hope."
Some key messages from Ms. Rockman:
- "Writers light long fuses. . . . The hope that keeps writers going in this lonely struggle . . . is that possibility of attaining that kind of immortality, of lighting that long fuse that will spark the imagination of one child or future writer."
- Quoting Ashley Bryan: "Doing what you love makes you more of who you are."
- Quoting Kwame Alexander: "Children need to have a way to see themselves in the future." To have "faith in the possiblity of good - in other words, hope."
I would have paid to attend this conference, so the fact that it was free was really amazing. Conferences like this generally start at about $200 and only go up from there.
I will end this post with the plea that the librarians made to the audience there - to support local libraries, because they really enrich a community and bring a love of literature to readers of all ages. You can become a Friend of Fairfield Library and help support the wonderful events they sponsor. I met writers there who had driven from hours away to attend. Events such as this are useful not only to the town itself, but to writers and readers from miles around.
If not Fairfield Library, please support your local libraries. In this day of budget cuts to community programs, it's more important than ever that we, the people who benefit from the programs, reach out and give back to ensure that they will be there for future generations.
When I was four, I was determined to be a writer. At the same time, I discovered the variety of stories to be told, and I was confused. I wondered why stories were broken up into different categories. Why was one shelved over there in romance and one over here in science fiction, when they both had elements of romance and they both had elements of science fiction? They were all stories, weren't they? I felt that I was genre-blind - I didn't exclude any genre because of they way it "looked." I had no problem reading them all.
So I have no qualms about writing any genre. I've written three books, all told (and several partial books, but we won't talk about those here, ha ha). One is a fairy tale retelling, one an epic science fiction/history crossover novel and one a contemporary romance.
I won't argue there are certain genres I tend to turn to more often than others when it comes to reading and writing. Depending on my mood, I might need a pick-me-up and turn to a lighthearted Kristan Higgins novel. Or I might feel I need some weighty historical events to ponder, and I'll pick up Naguib Mahfouz. Similarly with writing - I might be in a frivolous mood and write a slapstick comedy story, or world events might be getting me down, and I'll write a serious literary piece.
When I was a kid, there was a time when my goal was to write a book in every genre. That might be harder to do nowadays, with all the subclassifications of YA and MG and Wazoo and whatnot, but I think it might be a fun challenge to try.
What do you think? Do you read only one genre or are open to reading more? What is your favorite genre? And if you like a particular author, would you read their work even if they wrote a book in a genre you tended not to read?
This time, I really AM yawning because I'm tired. But I did it - NaNoWriMo is behind me. 50,000 words in a month, whew!
It's hard to believe it's December already. Wasn't it just September? LOL. But as I was hanging decorations throughout the house with the help of my three daughters (although the baby Aerin tended to EAT the decorations rather than hang them), I had a moment of reflection. I never wrote a Thanksgiving post, so I never managed to sum up all the things I'm thankful for. But the list isn't too complicated.
I'm thankful for family and friends. An easy one, right? But they have really done a lot to support me in my writing career and give me encouragement when things might have seemed bleak, both personally and professionally. I wouldn't be here without them.
And, speaking of writing, I'm really thankful for everyone who has helped me and who has read and enjoyed my stories. Although I've spent years honing my craft, there are times when I still can't believe that I'm a published author and that people actually read what I've put down on paper. That's pretty cool. I hope it's been entertaining along the way.
My most recent writerly news is that on the first of December, I entered the #PitMad contest run by the talented Brenda Drake. For those of you not familiar with the contest, it's run four times a year. From 8am-8pm, you can tweet about your unpublished manuscript three times, in the hopes of getting the attention of publishers and agents who are watching the thread.
I had planned and written my tweets in advance the week leading up to the contest, and I was very excited to participate. But with three kids and a lot of RL things to do the day of the contest, I wasn't able to get to it until quite late in the afternoon. When I sent out my tweets, I agonized that all the professionals would have already selected their picks and gone home, and I would be tweeting to an empty room.
But I wasn't! My book caught the interest of an agent and two publishers. I've sent the first couple of chapters to them, and so now I will wait with bated breath to hear back.
I love this time of year - hard not to, when my kids are bouncing around with joy every day. It's pretty contagious. Hope you are having a great start to your holiday season, too!
I am a freelance writer and poet with over forty short pieces published in magazines and anthologies. When not writing, I review books for the ezine Bewildering Stories. If the Walking Dead isn't on, I draw pictures and do origami meditation in Connecticut, where I live with my husband and three children. If the Walking Dead is on... shhhh! The Walking Dead is on!